From Cabelle Closet to Florimia!

Hello dear,

2 months ago, I've changed my online shop name from Cabelle Closet to Florimia. I felt that those old name became weird and hard to say. When someone ask about my olshop name directly I have to spell it again because they didn't know it clearly. Some people also think that "closet" is something weird. Expedition's employer asked me why I give it as an online shop name and told me to change it to fashion or something else --" They just don't know what the real meaning of closet is.

and now I've officially changed it to Florimia, without closet. I still don't know why I choose this name after some weeks fully-thinking about it. Flori is from floral or flowery, my fave pattern. Mia is from letter of my name, maybe. Eventhough one of my friend said that it's like a food name but i think it's better than before. Hopefully it would be a great name and still always be in my customers heart <3

Hi

actually I did forget about this heart break day by day, but it suddenly makes me galau when I was listening Ost. Athena I love you by Taeyeon, I like it from the first time I heard, and when I search the lyric, it deeply touch my heart.

Naega mianhaeyo miaenhayo.. Keudae iji mothaseo...

That memories suddenly came out, when we’re first meet in the branch of road and the last time I saw him disappear and I was always waiting that time when we can meet again, but he will never come back anymore. I know it’s not something good to remember but I just miss those moment, when I have someone to talk always at night, evethough I happily have a bestfriend to chat with anytime, the one whom I can share anything without doubting.

Maybe it will be better if I tell you about what I did this holiday, it was lovely thing to do actually, without college. Sewing at day, watching Korean drama at night. But it will officially over soon. I have to go back to campus tomorrow. Hopefully it will be a lovely thing to do too.

I should be happy that I am 20 and I have my own money to buy anything I need without asking to my parent anymore. Evethough sometimes it makes me tired to do all of this alone, buy fabrics, cut, sew, package, and send it to beloved customer, but I do love this job. Eventhough some people humiliate this, I know, they’re making some jokes from what we did when searching for customer or something else, but they just envy, they just don’t know what to do, they just too happy with their life.

But this is just me and what I have to through to be happy.

I am 20

Everyone certainly ever thought that if they have a time in their life where everything could just stop. The world would stop turning, and people would stop changing, because to them everything was perfect, and the perfect time for me is when my birthday. Everyone's so kind and wished me all the best.

So I would like to say billion thanks for you all who has make any efforts to tweeting, commenting, posting, surpriseing, rememberin and anything for my birthday. Thanks. Love you all.

Hell o 2013

I feel it's something weird when I say or hear someone say 2013. I don't know why, but it's not something that would be good, I thought. It's already 15 day passed, time still keeps running.

It's always so hard and become so hard to trough this way, abandoned by a fcking ex-boyfriend who is a married man, parents who occasionally quarrel, facing someone who lately act strange on me on campus, lectures that become revolting, making false pretense for customer, spending my hard-earned money for nothing.

It hurts to smile actually, I feel like I'm going to burst into tears. There's just some days like this when it all seems to be wrong and nothing feels right. Don't tell me it's gonna be alright, because I know that too. It's just that… right now. It just hurts so bad.  It feels like you're being thrown into a train track, but the train only hits your heart. Continuously. Over and over again without failure.

Hello 2013, I just wanna be happy.

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It's always difficult to start to write about my random feelings, but I really wanna share it here, on my beloved blog, unless it can ease my mind.

Let me tell about an awkward moment that I've been feeling lately on my college. It looks like some friends has changed. I know why they're become like that, as I become a lazy girl who  rarely came to campus and hanging out with them. What I did is just come to campus, listen to lecturer and make some note when I'm in a good mood to learn, and when the class is over I go home or somewhere, leaving campus. Customers order is waiting for me, as you know.

But it become so creepy lately, I'm getting lazy for college not because I have to rush the order, but because I'm afraid to face my friends statements or something kinda veiled judgement for me. Such as tumben kuliah, sehh rajin, wah rupanya ada belajar qe yaa... Although maybe it's just  a joke, but sometimes it hurts my heart so deep. Whereas I have been considered them as my closest friend on campus. For example in case, if we had to make a group by two person, I'm one of those person who didn't know with whom to make. It seems like no one wanna be my friend in group, poor me. I'm extremely depressed thinking of this, I was crying on the way home yesterday, yeah I'm still so whiny.

I really don't wanna feel this way anymore, I had to choose college as my first needs now, and they're included on that. Hopefully it would be better tomorrow and the next day, I no longer feel offended because of that usual statements, actually.